Concussed

So true story.....usually I am pretty dang good at finding my way in the dark through my house to my crying baby, but the other night I must have been a little dizzy or too tired or walking with my eyes completely closed, because I totally ran into the wall. And it wasn't my hands or legs or body that hit first, it was my head, and I hit it seriously hit HARD! I now know what people mean when they say they see stars after hitting their head. I totally saw them and the pain brought me to my knees. I am pretty sure I gave myself a concussion...I was nauseous and dizzy the rest of the night. I also got a bruise and a little bump on my forehead. Awesome story behind these war woulds, eh?

LOST

Is it sad that Dustin and I are SO excited for the season premiere of LOST (season 5) tonight? No I don't think so. We HAVE waited a long time. We are so excited that we are pretty much treating it almost like it is somebody's birthday! We love this crazy little show for some reason...addicted to it you could say. I wonder what our celebratory dinner will be tonight......corn dogs or chicken nuggets? :)

On an ironic note, our son is named Jack and we want to name a daugther Kate. I promise this was all in place BEFORE our addiction to the show. But I should have named our dog Sawyer, John, or Hurley....

Wow...

Wow...Now looking at that photobooth picture of me in thought, I have a really good idea of what I would like bald. Interesting...

Teaching

Is it wrong or sad or pathetic that when people ask me if I like my job, I cannot honestly answer yes? Well, I can HONESTLY say, I don't totally enjoy it. Maybe I would if I was single or if my kids were all grown up ..... but right now, not so much enjoying is happening. I can't completely figure out why. Maybe it is because I would rather ALWAYS be home with Jack or maybe it is cuz I have some pretty spoiled, unable to control themselves and their talking and their behavior students or maybe because teaching encompasses all my thoughts and time (yes even teaching part time) and completely drains me physically, emotionally, and mentally......Or maybe I would just rather sit home, be lazy, be a housewife and a homemaker. Yes. I think I would rather do that. They don't pay me enough to make the time put into this job worth it. And maybe I would like teaching better if I was like a p.e. teacher where I don't have so many papers and essays and tests to grade as I do being an English teacher. Being a teacher is TIME CONSUMING AND TIRING! Don't get me wrong....I don't HATE my job. There are great moments when I love it and things I love about it.....like that I get to teach WHATEVER I want HOWEVER I want and WHENEVER I want! That is awesome. The freedom at the school I work is great. And I love it when a student says something profound or brilliant or interesting or when they write an amazing poem or a super intellectual thought. Or when my ENTIRE class gets their poems accepted for publication. (TRUE STORY!) Those are great times, but I don't know if for me, right now in my life, they outweigh the not so great things. I AM TIRED! I just want to play with my Jack-Jack, but no, right now I need to write 2 finals by tomorrow, grade some other stuff and try to write nice comments about each student for the end of the semester. And one last thing....right now it kind of seems sad that I don't enjoy teaching too much after training to be a teacher in college for the last 5-6 years of my life. Is it bad that maybe I would rather go into sports administration or nursing now....Yeah, but like I wanna go back to school.....Anyway, I just needed to rant and rave a little and now I am going to try to entertain my son and write two finals at the same time. Wish me luck....

P.S. The English teacher in me would like to apologize for all of the run-on sentences and bad grammar and syntax in this post. The Complainer in me says, BITE ME! :)

Meltdowns, swollen eyes, perma-headaches, and a wonderful ward....

Ya dig that pic? That is me at the end of my very rough day today. I have swollen eyes and have cried off every bit of makeup that I had on long ago. It has been a very....emotional day. Dustin got up and left this morning at 5 to go on a road trip with the basketball team. He won't be back til Thanksgiving Day. But I won't be here. Jack and I are going to Utah for Thanksgiving and won't come back until next Saturday or Sunday. So we won't see Dustin for a whole week, including on the lovely holiday of Thanksgiving and I think that just plain sucks. So that makes me a tad emotional. Jack loves his daddy VERY much. When his Daddy isn't here, I think it makes him angry, annoyed, confused, whatever and so he chooses to act a little naughty and be a little stinker....which is what he did today at church. I probably got to actually sit in Sacrament meeting today for maybe 10 minutes. Jack has this new move where he arches his back and tries to slide out of your arms and off your lap. It is accompanied by a super annoying whine which he recently developed. One of my dear friends could tell I was one whine away from losing it I think, so she took Jack during Sunday school. I think her kind act is what finally set the water works in motion, and they haven't stopped all day. After Sunday school and many caring "Are you ok?" from fellow church members, I was still crying so another wonderful sister in the ward took Jack during Relief Society and told me to go in an try to enjoy Relief Society. I went outside and tried to compose myself (where two wonderful sisters came to check on me and make me feel better by telling me that everyone has emotional days, I am a good mom, and that they loved me, etc) I went back into class. I cried the whole time in there, but it was a great lesson on gaining knowledge. I had sisters come and ask me if I was okay, give me hugs, bring me Kleenexs. Seriously, at least 10 people helped me or tried to comfort me at church. I have the most amazing ward and friends. They were wonderful. But all day I still kept crying. I cried over Dustin being gone. I cried over us being apart for yet another holiday. I cried for Jack's naughtiness. I cried because I felt like an awful mother. I cried for Jack for not getting his Daddy for a whole week. I cried because everyone was so nice to me at church. I cried because I was embarrassed that I couldn't stop crying....etc. I am sure you get the point. Anyways, yay for wonderful church members who love and support me. Yay for a son who I love so stinkin much and is SO cute but can be a little stinker sometimes, Yay for meltdowns, and Yay for the crazy things that hormones do to you right before that special time of the month. (Sorry if that is too much information). And yay for puppies who usually annoy the crap out of me but today was very loving and supportive. Thanks people in my ward, thanks friends, and thanks Chewie, I survived today. Tomorrow is a new bright day...hopefully! :)

Tags? Why not?

I figure since people tag me, and I don't really feel like putting them on our family blog, I can put them here...on my random blog. I am sure they will fit in nicely. So here is just one....I think the most recent....of the many tags I have received....

THE GREAT EIGHT!

EIGHT things that make me feel good: Jack, sleeping, laughing, being outside, smelling rain, Dustin, the ocean, and exercising (if I ever do it),

EIGHT THINGS I DID YESTERDAY: Taught school, took a nap, changed about 4 poopy diapers, played with Jack, ate too much, watched a stupid movie that Dustin made me watch, watched "Chicago" one of my favorite movies of all time, and talked to my sister Lisa on the phone.

EIGHT FAVORITE EATS/Drinks: Cherry Coke Zero, Diet Dr. Pepper, Chicken Fingers or Chicken Nuggets w/ BBQ sauce from McDonalds, any kind of fresh fruit (Don't you dare try to give me any of that nasty cooked or dried fruit! GROSS! , Cafe Rio/Costa Vida, Olive Garden food, especially the salad and breadsticks (Dang Bozeman for not having one but teasting me with the commercials on TV!!) Sonic Grilled Cheese Sandwiches, and Red Lobster!

EIGHT THINGS ON MY WISH LIST: Go on a vacation to Hawaii, have Dustin design and build a dream home for us, for me and my family to be happy, to have more kids (preferably a girl sometime, to live closer to either one of our families, for Dustin to get baptized, to go through the temple with Dustin and be sealed to him, to have someone else clean my house, and for us to make more money.

EIGHT THINGS I LOVE ABOUT FALL: My birthday, Jack's birthday, the colorful fall leaves, HALLOWEEN, the cool weather, fall clothes to cover me up, the smell of snow coming, and new TV seasons starting :)

EIGHT FAVORITE TV SHOWS: Law and Order: Special Victims, CSI (any), Amazing Race, America's Next Top Model, Lost (I cannot wait for it to start!), Jeopardy, Sports Center, and The Biggest Loser

EIGHT THINGS I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO: Halloween, Jack's first birthday, Thanksgiving, the food at Thanksgiving, Christmas, spending my first New Year's Eve with my husband since we have been married, the next time we get to see Dustin's family, trying to have another baby next year.

And there you go....Yee haw! Insight into my life!

Thoughts? What thoughts?

Sorry, (especially to Mindy) for the lack of updates on this blog. It is supposed to be my thoughts...but really I haven't had many lately. My brain does not seem to be functioning quite up to par. Ask Dustin. He will tell you I have been a serious ditz for about the last month. (Yes even more so than normal!) My friend Cami would probably agree because I have totally forgotten not once but twice to come over when I was supposed to to watch her kids. (Even after Dustin reminded me in the morning at least 3 times, I still forgot that afternoon.) Or ask my poor nephew who just barely got his birthday card sent off yesterday and his birthday was September 15th. Or you could notice the card still sitting on my counter for a friend's birthday back in the middle of September and I keep forgetting to give it to her even though she watched Jack two days in a row and I see her every week at church. I am pretty much losing my mind. I don't really know why either. Maybe it is the craziness of trying to me a mom to THE BUSIEST boy around who is pooping an average of 4 times a day. Or because of the annoyingness (no not a word but I can't think of a better one) of my weirdo middle schoolers whose extensive annoyingness is frying or ruining my brain. Or maybe because the weather has been winter then summer then fall up here. Who knows? Whatever it is, my brain isn't working too well so my thoughts aren't quite here.....I will do better. But here is my legitimate but lame-o excuse. Does anyone else ever feel like they are kind of losing their mind? :)